It's kind of mystical to know that he (the 命中注定）exists somewhere.
You're waiting for him to turn up, anxious to know what he looks like.
You think about when, where, and how you will meet The One. It's sort
of like someone telling you that you have won the lottery, but won't
let you claim the prize yet. Oh how much you want it!

I guess when it comes I can tell you how it feels like to meet The
One. People have come in and out, but you don't have quite the right
feeling that this is the right one yet. But when it comes you would
know immediately. Always trust your heart and instincts.

I'm anticipating that our reunion from the past would be a joyous one.
Waiting for the click to happen.

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Waiting for my 命中注定。 if you believe in fate and past lives, then
you know that whoever you meet this life is somehow connected to you
in the past lives. Then my 命中注定 is pretty much decided from the
start.

No matter what you do or where you go, you will find your 命中注定
eventually. Something will lead you to him or her. You can be here
right now but something will lead you to the other side of the world
to find him.

That, is the forces behind this mystery.

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Meeting with Other Reiki Volunteers

 

Yesterday I went to the BWH to meet with the founder and officers of the Reiki Pilot Volunteer Program. There were 5 of us. There’s another girl around the same age as I, one in her 50’s, one in her 30’s and one Asian woman in her 40’s. We had everyone in different age group but we were all women!! We were all having at least 1 year of experience with Reiki, and we would be the first to start this program.

 

We first spent 10 minutes meditating. Thank god that I was tired so I used that time to rest a little bit. I was surprised that I was able to sit still for 10 minutes without moving or fidgeting. But twice I felt itchy and wanted to scratch myself. After that we had to do Reiki treatments on each other. I got paired up with the Asian lady and I had to do it on her first. The first step I had done it wrong because I wasn’t setting an intention and my Reiki didn’t come for the first 5 minutes. Then I did the whole treatment and I kind of did the sweeping of the aura wrong too….

 

Then I had mine done by 2 people at the same time. It must be fate because afterwards the founder, Pat, who’s also a nurse and Reiki Master, said that I was cooking! I’ll explain what it means later. So I was having Reiki done by the Asian woman Betty and a vocational therapist Debbie. I didn’t really feel much from Betty on my head. I might have felt something at the heart and the solar plexus, that’s it. I can’t really explain what it is, because it’s so subtle that you think it’s your imagination. But I’ve heard enough by other people that you think you imagined it, but you did not.

 

I felt more with Debbie, maybe because her hands were warm? Betty’s hands were cold on the other hand. But I don’t know if it’s relaxing or what, my mind wasn’t everywhere. It was focused on two things – the music and the gentle touch from their hands. After my Reiki was done, I got up and felt light headed. Usually I’m not like that let’s say when I get up from a nap. This one was like as if I was in a trance and I got up and had to shake my head and refocus my eyes and mind. Then the nurse Pat told Debbie that she was very powerful. None of us asked what was going on. But when I talked to Debbie, she told me that Pat can see some wild stuff, like how energy moves, everything! Of course including spirits and other sorts of unimaginable stuff.

 

After we were done showing what we know, Pat explained the rules. No jeans! No open toes! Am I supposed to wear sneakers in a pair of pants? Eeeww….

 

So Pat told me that I was “cooking” when I had Reiki done by 2 people.  I was just laughing but when I went home and thought about it, I knew what she meant. This has happened to me during my Reiki I class in Newton too! The other students were doing Reiki on me and one of the students, who was a physical therapist and can see energy, said she saw smoke coming out of my feet. My Reiki teacher was trying to unblock the energy on my 3^rd eye and she felt a lot of my energy bursting out and she felt so overwhelmed by my energy that she ran to the bathroom. She said it almost made her want to throw up. What Pat was talking about was actually due to these energies trapped inside me. When Reiki was performed on me, it helped release all these trapped energies and that’s what she meant that I was “cooking”! I swear I need more Reiki sessions to get all those out of me, whether it means paying to get it done.

 

I feel pretty bad for some of the volunteers because out of the 5 of us, only I and the Asian woman have a job. The rest are looking for jobs. It kinda makes me feel lucky to have a job.

 

Fears and dreams

Lately whatever I heard on tv or from somebody had been reflected in
my dreams. I forgot what I dreamt 2 nights ago but yesterday...

I was watching tv and the tv host said, if you are dying, what would
you eat for your last meal? Then he answered it doesn't matter what
you eat, but who you would eat with. I was thinking about this
statement, and then I had a dream that night....

All of my friends were in freddy's apartment. Freddy was there too. We
all knew Freddy was dying soon so we all wanted to hang out with him.
We were sleeping on the floor in the apt, we were discussing where to
go tomorrow. Then I was just doing regular stuff that I would do, and
suddenly I cried uncontrollably. I couldn't believe Freddy was going
to die. Then I woke up....

A few days ago me and my aunt were discussing skin cancer. Then in my
dream last night I discovered a mole on my skin, which is skin cancer.

Last year I had some toothache. My tooth felt loose. And I dreamt
that all my teeth slowly fell off one by one...

These dreams are not fun. The emotions were so real that I woke up
thinking it actually happened. Sigh....

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Just got an email that the place where I learned Reiki is closing because of their debt. They are a non-profit and they only rely on membership fees and donations. I knew they are having a lot of trouble surviving and I donated $80 in February when they asked for donations. It’s very sad because they are opened because of the intentions and not for profit. They should have quit the place when they start to get in debt, instead of getting into deeper debt. The founder of this place used to be a finance manager. I guess they want to keep it open as long as possible.

 

Random thoughts

Started the morning with an energy bar, then off to the gym. I didn't
get to do the workouts I intended to, because a trainer approachesd me
and offered to help. So he taught me to use this machine and he
monitored me for 20 minutes. Afterwards he asked me if I want a free
personal training session and I said no. But he dragged me into his
office and gave me his info and took my email address. If he didn't
have the weird chihuahua eyes, I would have considered him. But I
think I'm uncomfortable with all male individuals, because I can't
have this feeling that they might want more than business.

Went to the PF Changs next to Chinatown for lunch. Do not go to the
one at Prudential because the one at Chinatown tastes much better.

Walked straight to Newbury and got a coffee at L'Aroma. Awesome coffee
bur long wait. Well worth the wait and they have all sorts of dessert
and other drinks.

Saw a few people in long boots. Are they from Alaska?

Sale in every store. I wanna buy them all.

$69 plus extra 25% off on selected Seven jeans - cheap! Oh it's at New
York Barneys.

Noticed that J Crew clothes are getting cuter. Must have been that
Chinese designer. The designs have those Japanese cuteness in them.
They were popular a year ago.

Don't know why but I have been very friendly and always striking up
conversations with my waitress, the store cashier, store clerks. I
tried to walk with a soft face and very tiny smiles and found that
they all approached me very friendly. Is it the aura? Or my soft face?
I think in the past I had a very straight face that seemed very angry
on the outside.

I like the change.

I've been trying to look at people in the eye. I have a habit of
avoiding strangers' faces and when I look at them I don't look in
their eyes. People say that lacks self confidence. I haven't successed
yet. Need to work on.

Also need to look at people's faces (and eyes), even passerbys. I
found that I get a strange tingle for guys, and when I look at girls
they smiled at me.

I'm more conscious at what I spend. I avoid anything that costs more
than $45 for a top now. Because I wear them less than 10 times a year.

After a while of shopping, I found that I'm getting dizzy. Next time,
I need to eat a breakfast before workout.

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Occupational Health Services and Badge ID Encounter

If you work at the hospital, you would first need health clearance
before you start. So what you need us proof of vaccinations of MMR,
immunity to chicken pox, and TB (tuberculosis) test.

Let's have a history of my association with TB. I volunteered at MGH
from 1997 to 1999 and I had a negative TB test result, which means I
had no exposure to TB. TB can be transmitted by air and I must have
somehow encountered someone with tuberculosis at the hospital. My job
there was delivering flowers so my encounters with different patients
are pretty high. Gosh if a patient has TB, they should wear a sign or
something. So during my college entrance check up I was tested
positive, which means I had been exposed to TB, the bacteria is
"dormant" in my lungs. I had been healthy enough that my immune
system had fought off the bacteria.

I told the nurse at the OHS today that I have positive TB and I ask
her i need another test, since I read online that the bacteria might
have been gone after I take anti-biotics. I had taken anti-biotics for
6 months after I found out I had exposure to TB. But she said no I
don't need a test nor chest x-Ray. I asked if i will have "it" for the
rest of my life and she said yes.

So I don't have to take the TB test and go back to check the results
of the test, this is better for me but I also read that there us a
chance for the bacteria to become active if my body is weak or
something. The nurse said I am fine as long as I don't hve any
symptoms. All these years I had forgotten that I'm carrying some
dormant deadly disease in my body. It's like a timer ticking off and a
bomb going off with any sudden trips.

After seeing the nurse I can advance to get an ID badge. I never had
an ID badge at MGH back then. Anyway the woman asked me what dept I
work for, and said that she's never hears of Integrativr Care Dept.
She asked me what it does and I had trouble telling her what that
department does. So at last I said it's Reiki. Then she became very
friendly and bursted out I KNOW REIKI!!! She said she loves reiki and
she had her chiropractor did reiki on her and it felt good. She and
her husband and her son are booking reiki treatments! It's pretty
weird how you think nobody knows about reiki and when you talk about
it all these people come forward and said they've heard about it.

And also to the people who think this is something bogus, a cult,
superstitious behavior - this is something even nurses and doctor
believe in.

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It kinda feels good after walking out of the orientation because I've
done something out of my ordinary routine, met and talked to a few
people. I talked to an Asian girl who was interested in reiki and she
asked me about it. She left and we didn't get to talk more. I met 3
other reiki volunteers and it seems like they are not up to my level
yet. People looked kinda surprised after I told them I am reiki
certified. Maybe I don't look like the type? Sometimes you can tell if
they are reiki users, because their looks are more kind and soft and
approachable.

So at first I thought that going home from Brigham & Womens is a long
ride - going through E line and then B line from Arlington station. I
know that going through the train would make a triangle to Brighton,
so I searched through the bus routes and found that I can actually
take bus 66, either stop at coolidge corner or at Comm Ave. So. Much
easier. And the ride is only 15 minutes to Coolidge corner, literally
around the corner instead if going through a triangle. Thus makes life
so much easier and less complaints from me!!!

If I had known this bus route, I wouldn't be going home late I'm high
school from all those volleyball games and stuff. All thanks to
technology. I couldn't search for maps or bus routes 10 years ago.

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I hate how these people think you don't have a job or something and
can Come back any time you want. Lucky I split my vacation days into 2
half days. So tomorrow I have to go back to get chest xrays, clear my
shots and stuff. They offer free Hep B shots for us. It's a big hassle
to keep going back. I mean, so I have to keep taking hrs off to do
stuff like that now? I feel so uneasy about taking hrs off work. But
my boss wrote a nice reference about me tho. Need 2 professional
references to volunteer. They didn't need that when I was in high
school, shows how much more difference it is now.

We get some nice perks volunteering there, like 50% off T passes and
discounted movie tickets. Have to keep a lookout.

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Orientation

Tomorrow is orientation for volunteering at the hospital. After that I
have to get chest x-rays for my TB. After that is reiki test, then I
would be all set to go. Such a long process. I told the people who
organized thus program that I have to take days off here and there for
this, just 'venting out'. I know it's pointless or even give a bad
impression by complaining, because life is all about sacrifices. I
know I shouldn't have complaint but I can't help it. I had an urge to
express myself.

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Pon-yo

Gosh I can’t stop singing this:

 

Ponyo ponyo ponyo sakano no ko

Aoi umi kara yattekita

Ponyo ponyo ponyo fukuranda

Manmaru onaka no onna no ko……………….

 

Ponyo ponyo ponyo nnnnnnn.......nnnnn………..

 

 

And I can’t stop listening to this and singing along with it…….hahaha…..should never get started with this. Should never download the Japanese version on Youtube. Should just stick to bo-I bo-I bo-I bo-I bo-I boi and just repeat this damn phrase.

Whitehall/Bethlehem, PA

 

 

I should have put down the events that had happened during our Whitehall trip.

 

We left on Friday evening on 6/26, we had Vinni driving for about 2 hours first and then we stopped at an Old Saybrook Shopping Center in Connecticut to get some burgers recommended by Vinni’s colleague. It was a nice area, definitely need to return to this area. We had our burgers and Vinni wanted to drive some more. She drove for an hour and then we got lost so we decided to switch back to Eric driving. We didn’t get to PA until 2am.

 

We woke up at 10 in the morning and we began sorting our Freddy’s clothes. He had like 4 trash bags of clothings. Nobody wanted to take his unused socks, undershirt, jeans with tags on – so we were going to donate everything, for a cause. Frank kept some Red Sox and Obama t-shirts, and Jason took Freddy’s jersey. While cleaning out Freddy’s closet, we found a CD case with chinese porn inside – that was a major discovery!! More exciting than finding a hundred dollar bill. We knew we were going to find something like that, but actually seeing them was exciting, haha.

 

Freddy also had some gift cards that he had left over, and he had a big cup of coins in there. We all guessed how much was in it and we went to the coin machine to exchange them for cash, and we were going to use it to have dinner. We all guessed somewhat between $50 to $65…..but Yee guessed $85 and the total came out to be $93 – but taken out the commission it was $83….we were all surprised by the amount, all the coins and quarters added up to something big. So it was a nice treat, we went to a sushi restaurant for dinner, the total came out to be two hundred something.

 

We finished cleaning everything up by 2. There wasn’t much to clean, just pack everything in bags and boxes. There were 9 people there to help out – me, Yee, Vinni, Eric, Frank, Jason. And we had Freddy’s roommate Dan and his friends – Lauren and this other girl. We didn’t have to sort out everything like I had thought either, because Frank said just dump everything into one box and he will sort through them in Boston. So it only take several hours. We spent the rest of the afternoon staying in the apartment doing nothing. I suggested going somewhere but Freddy’s roommate was there so we wanted to include him too, and he’s Jewish so I guess there’s no point of going NYC and force him to eat Chinese food with us.

 

Before dinner we checked out the new casino at Bethlehem. It’s not a casino yet, because table games have not been approved by the state yet so all they have now is slot machines. We looked at the “blue print” of the upcoming Sands Resort and it’s going to be huge. Something exciting for the locals but I really don’t like having it 5 minutes away from a University.

Dream

I had a dream last night, where I was trying to hide from everyone. I
had some kind of thing that could make me invisible while holding it.
But the place where I was hiding had so much stuff around me that the
smallest move could make a sound, and I was making a lot if sounds. In
the dream I was a guy, and a girl was looking every where for me. She
came to where I was hiding and leaned herself on me, with a feeling of
sadness. She said she is waitng for me.

Why was I a guy in the dream? That rarely happens. It felt so real,
could it be a scene related to my past life?

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