So much to worry about, now that there’s only 1 week until my aunt leaves, 2 weeks till the wedding. First, I need to start planning how much help does my grandmother need. I don’t think she’s even in the condition to think clearly now, let alone planning a dinner for us when we come back. I’m not really worried about going home to cook dinner. I can leave work early and cook up a meal in an hour. But on the weekends – do I need to go home at 4 pm every Saturday to cook dinner, ending my dates at 3 pm? Sigh. My grandma is grieving right now, for the departure of her daughter, when her daughter is still here. So she will be in a worse shape when she is not here anymore.

 

Now with 2 weeks to the wedding, time is flying by. Lily’s got her own stuff to worry about, like cleaning her condo, getting the furniture all delivered, moving into the condo by this week. Next week she would have her fresh flowers delivered and she has to make her own BOUQUETS and BOUTINNIERES. That is crazy. She would only have next Weds to Friday to do them. What if it fails? Arrggh…too scary and dangerous. That is one big thing that I’m worried about.

 

Next big thing is the toast that I need to make. I need to write a nice, presentable speech so everyone will be touched at the wedding. Wait…no I’m not aiming for the touching part to happen. At least if it sounds nice and I can get by with it, that’s fine. Someone asked me if I’ll have stage fright. Even though it’s been a while since I’ve been on stage, but I’ve got plenty of experience!!! I’m not worried at all. The tip is not to imagine the scene too much in your head. When you do it, just go up and do it. But of course, rehearse a few times out loud on your own.

 

Hopefully there’s only 3 things that I need to worry about, for now.

 

Sometimes when something ended – do you think it has ended, without any trace left behind? It’s going to come back some day, when you least expect it. And it will haunt you, bother you, remind you, and probably bring back the pain and reminiscence of the suffering. Ha… and it will also haunt the people around you. Sigh.

 

Sleepless nights, on something that did not even happen to you

Scary dreams, on something that will not happen

Hallelujah!

 

 

 

So many things going on lately. Every weekend is full. Everyone has shit going on. Yee is buying a car, Vinni is buying a house, Jason bought a car, Tiffany is having a Chinese baby shower, Ivy is leaving Boston!

Oh wait, the wedding is a month away and why am I still not on a diet?

It’s been a while since I updated here. March was a busy month, and I think April is also busy. May would be busy too up till Lily’s wedding. Sigh…..I wish I have the freedom to do stuff after work without my family complaining that I won’t be eating dinner at home and things like that. With only Saturday being free, of course every weekend would be busy. I had been jamming events into Saturdays – birthdays, bachelorette, NY C-town, Farewell, visiting the newborn. What else – the wedding!! Then after that would be the Chinese baby shower. Oh did I mention my money is pouring out because of all these events? Not to mention shopping for clothes for these events.

 

Things are looking good to complete one of my goals before I turn 30. I’m seriously counting – attending 10 weddings! I think I have 4 weddings to go to this year. So that’s only 6 more left until I turn 30 – which is next year! I guess 6 more weddings would be impossible. Wait, there’s one more in California….I might consider going (by myself) if there’s incentive for me to go. Things might get gloomy for me after this year because I might be running out of friends who are getting married.

 

Yee made a comment saying how it’s pathetic that Lily doesn’t have that many friends to attend her Bachelorette. I imagined my own bachelorette. I’m not sure if I will surpass her in the number of attendance. Lol.

 

I wish I have 2 Saturdays in a weekend. Sigh.