Bubbling with Excitement

 

Oh my god, I’m so damn excited to go to the desert. I can’t wait. I am bubbling with excitement. Listening to Black Eyed Pea’s Bom Bom Pow makes me want to dance right on the street, makes me think about clubbing. I can’t wait for their album to come out in June. I can’t wait for the Apple announcement on Iphone in June either. OMG!!!!! (I’m sounding like Freddy)

 

I’ve decided, since it’s free with my coke reward points, that I want to make a photo book of myself too! At least make one for my twenties, then one for my thirties, then forties……etc. It’d be fun!!  =)  I’d make sure I put my nicest and best looking pics in there tho….like a little self portfolio. And those paper never fade color, unlike real photos.

 

Bubbling, bubbling bubbling…………….

FW: Hong Kong Japanese Rapper

 

I love people with talents.

 

There's this emerging rapper who raps in Japanese but he's born in Hong Kong. His name is NYCCA (日華). His father is Chinese and his mother is Japanese. He moved to Japan when he was 10 and he went to New York to attend College. His new single, No. 1, the song is rapped in mainly Japanese, then Cantonese and English. I think he won an award in Japan and he was so famous that they used his song from his new single, No. 1, as the theme song for the Olympics.

 

I think he will be a big big star very soon. I think he's not bad looking, better than MC Jin.

 

Hear  and see his new song:

 

http://www.nycca.net/

 

 

I just realized that this wound would never heal. I need a doctor to heal it.

 

I'm a little disappointed in how some people just won't or can't come today. Some exceptions apply, but I'm sure there are a few that just don't want to go, or they feel like they don't know the person enough to go. I guess if you feel that way, it's a little discouraging.

That leads to the question - these are not the real friends and therefore it doesn't matter. But of course I would want as much people remember me as possible.

As I was saying today, it made me think that death can happen to any of us any time, which is very grim.

I came home today and my aunt said all we need to do now is be happy. Good! No more nagging about going to school. All I say is that school doesn't make me happy, and she won't nag anymore, haha.

 

 

I know that now we have digital cameras, we don’t print pictures anymore. Sometimes when I took some really nice pictures, I print them out and just put them away. Today I was looking for a picture of Freddy that I remember because that was one of my favorite pics. I happened to find 2 very happy pictures of Freddy that I had totally forgotten about. They contain the happiest smiles of Freddy. They are also part of my favorite pictures, that’s why I printed them. But I had forgotten about them. Looking at the date that was taken – 7/27/2008. What was the occasion? All I remember was that we went to play MJ and ate Vietnamese Pho for dinner. It was summer time so I’m guessing that he was coming to Boston to hang out. Maybe it was during the time that his brother and sister came to visit him as well.

 

Happy memories, that’s what we want. Pictures really help when we try to remember someone. So much will come back. I haven’t said it enough – we need to take more pictures.

 

Reflection of CaptainM81's Battle

 

5/4 and 5/5 was a long wait yet it all came too quick. Freddy was strong, more optimistic than I thought. There are more than a thousand things to say about the past 2 days. I just don’t know where to begin.

 

I just want to say that this is new for all of us. We’ve never lost a friend in our lives. I’ve lost a grandpa but I was never close with him and I was not there when it all happened in Hong Kong. But this is REAL. We’ve been there, throughout his chemo treatments, his ups and downs, seen his family, read his blogs, staying near him during his last days.

 

I realized that now he’s gone, all the previous discussions and complaints about his personality imperfections didn’t matter anymore. If he will come back we will love everything about him. His imperfections are what made it unique about him. I mean, do you know anyone who would scream in the middle of the night? Talks to himself loudly? Hits himself for being stupid? His Spanish/Chinese accent? Gets a headache from listening to R&B? We are going to miss that about him.

 

So is this how it’s supposed to be? I remember how we used to discuss about his weird personality, as if we didn’t like him. And yet no! I feel like I could go to hell for that.

 

And I was saving all these HK dramas and songs for him. What am I going to do with them? Sigh…..

 

I know that during these 2 nights we had at least 2 chances to say our last words or goodbyes to Freddy. I had been thinking – I would rather to say the last words to a conscious person rather than an unconscious person. I know he can hear us, but how can we be sure? Words are better said to a live person than a dead person, that’s why I really didn’t have much to say when he was unconscious. After he passed away, that’s a different message. I communicated with him in my heart that he needs to watch over his family and his friends and protect us. Help Frank to find a job – and a girlfriend!

 

It was easy for me to say that there are ghosts and spirits in this world. But it was actually hard for me to imagine I actually have a friend that is invisible now. I actually felt Freddy out of his body when he was hanging on, and when I saw him after he passed away, I felt that he was no longer there, like he was taken by the “shirigami” (death gods). Maybe the machines were no longer making sounds? I don’t know.

Touching Story

I heard a story today that is very touching. It's a real story that belonged to an unknown old woman:

When the old woman was young, she fell in love with a rich young man in mainland China. She was from a poor family, they wanted to stay together. The rich family refused so they chained her up under a tree.

Years went by, the young man never gave up, they spent nights together. One day the young woman became pregnant. The family never freed her. She was chained up during her pregnancy, even till the child was born. She took care of her child while chained up. She was pregnant the second time. All this time, the family never fed her. She was fed by the fellow villagers and her lover.

Six years went by, she was finally freed. She had nurtured 2 children all chained up.

I don't know anymore details than that. All I know is that she never got married with the man, he went to some other country after that and married another rich woman. The poor woman was left with her kids, staying true to her love.

So sad....

I just went shopping again today! Agghh when can I ever stop? Well fashion never stays stagnant so I guess that's a wrong question to ask!

Taking a day off = shopping = spending = tiring

My feet is having blisters after walking in my sneakers. I think walking in shoes is even better than walking in sneakers. I walked in shoes last time and I had no blisters. Damn sneakers!!

I can't believe that Hong Kong is infested with H1N1 with ONE mexican traveler. SIgh.....