I hate how you put down the tarot cards for a few months, pick it back
up and nothing is accurate. Too lazy to rebuild the aura, energy
field, reiki, intuitiveness, psyhic part again. Everything works at
once, too much work!

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It was a fun Christmas Eve at Yee’s house despite a lot of thinking whether I should go or not. But luckily my grandmother is free of chemo so we are all “settled” for the holidays. A few things to note from that night:

 

1)      Yee got a flower arrangement from “The Person Who Always Get Under Her Skin” (something like that) for not being able to come

2)      I shared my news of the exciting blind date

3)      My friends laughing at what I showed them (in case this made public to him, not naming incidents or names)

4)      My friends making fun of my name and his name

 

More funny things to share in person!

 

Scorpio (ME!!)

I should send this to all my new friends, or whoever that wants to know more about me. So I don’t need to show them who I am unconsciously – this describes it all:

 

SCORPIO (me!)

Reputed to be the "most powerful" sign of the zodiac, Scorpios lead fate filled lives and have intense and dramatic personal relationships. Even as children Scorpios are often found to be wise beyond their years. Many astrologers call this the sign of the "oldest souls". Old and wise beyond the average, Scorpios often know all the answers, except sometimes; they too often have difficulty finding what they need to develop their own happiness.

Passion, desire and power go hand in hand for Scorpios. Their biggest challenge and test in life is choosing between the power of love and the love of power. Coming to grips with their extraordinary emotional depths and sensitivity isn't easy for those around them. They are different from all other zodiac signs and this difference has them walking, working and loving to a different beat. Others can often live with a Scorpio partner for years, but not really know them. Much to do with a Scorpio remains ever secret. Their eyes often blaze with feelings that words never express, and beware on the days or nights they hide their feelings behind dark glasses, there is likely to be a storm of some kind brewing. When you deal with a Scorpio you have to always deal with them on a psychic intuitive level. They often wear a mask. Too often they say "no" when they really mean "yes". They have contrary natures. Once they find true love they can be the most faithful dedicated of all partners but fall out badly with a Scorpio and you are likely to find they will never forget or forgive.

Most Scorpios are winners. The main thing they have to worry about is their attitudes, which make up their mind powers and can either make or break them. When they are negative about something or someone, or critical of themselves, they can tend to get in their own way.

 

When one is near the end of the road, one always tends to turn towards god or other spiritual figures, asking for protection. But when one used to be healthy, would he or she turn towards god? I guess that’s why they encourage you to pray regularly.

 

I guess it makes sense why you have to pray regularly for the god to protect you. Another method I know that works is, make a promise to change in exchange for the protection. And if whatever wish you asked for come true but you didn’t keep your promise, the punishment would come.

 

Grandma’s operation is tomorrow, but the surgeon called to request her to stay overnight today. Her blood pressure is abnormally low, and they want to make precautions and give her IV’s as necessary. This phone call kinda threw us off, and yesterday, my grandmother started passing out red envelopes for Christmas. This is not a good indication, she shouldn’t have done that, that would upset us more. Right now she is in the hospital, just had a blood transfusion. Both of my aunts are staying overnight to help her. I feel sorry that they have to do that. But I would do the same thing too, if I have the time.

Not happy – I think my company blocked my streaming Chinese radio. I’ll be so bored at work.

 

Coming back from vacation, all my worries and thoughts arise once again. There are so many things I need to settle. But it would be alarming to do all of them. They include:

 

• Settling volunteer times (do I still want to volunteer? It appears not since it’s time consuming. Maybe once everything calms down and I’m a new peaceful person, I will start)
• Tending to my family (how much family time do I give them? Do I need to cut down a lot of my personal time?)
• New job (need to start searching at home, but right now I’m catching up on downloading all the episodes I’ve missed from vacation. Not to mention my aunt is hogging my laptop half of the time, and I only get less than 1 hr of internet time a day)
• Lily (before my grandma’s diagnosis I promised her that I would share a lot of the wedding preparation workload with her. Now she knows I’m not quite “here” so she’s doing the work. I still need to take time to go makeup artist shopping with her, and going to NYC with her) Also need to help plan her Bachelorette, which I don’t want to plan because I don’t do anything fun anyways
• Telling my dad that his mother has colon cancer

 

I guess that’s about it for now. To do all that in a month is a little hectic for me. And to also have these 5 thoughts evolve around my head every day, the pressure is pressing down. Hmm, not to mention the little things….oh well shouldn’t think too much. My white hair is coming out really fast and I’m losing my hair.

 

I haven’t talked to my parents for over a year. I read in a spiritual forum that it’s good to disconnect from you family for a short/long period of time because it might mean you are disconnecting from the past karma issues (they are your family this life because of the karmic issues/ties in your past lives). So to disconnect and start a new relationship again, you have disconnected from the past. Everything could be better than before. It is pretty strange that my heart feels it’s not the right time to start talking to them yet. When the time comes I will want to call them. But I have a feeling the time will be up soon….

 

I’m anticipating a busy December. Between juggling work and home, I could possibly be starting volunteer again. Have to start looking for jobs, and having my aunt hogging my computer most of the time, trying to download all the dramas I’ve missed, I don’t know what comes first! Sigh.