I was going through my hotmail account….and found this piece of “memory” from 2004.

I’m glad I kept it. No matter if it’s a good or bad memory, it’s still a learning experience and remind myself of how naïve I was.

 

So this excerpt is when he suggested meeting me (Freshman Year), and I was too scared so I logged off. He emailed me to ask if I didn’t want to hand out, so I said:

“forget about today and the past. it's not u, just pretend u dunno me.
how hard is tat.”

 

Then he wrote:

“dont even say its one of those "its not you" things okay?  heidi...
dont tell me to forget about today and the past also....its okay if we
never hang out...dont u understand that?  its okay if we just chat online
and never see each other.  why are u avoiding me?  i'm not mad at u...i hope
you're not mad at me.  so whats wrong?”

 

 

These are the only things I kept. But how romantic…haha.

 

So needless to say I came out to meet him, and obviously he was not interested and said he had a huge migraine and it wasn’t my problem. He tried to chat with me a few times after first meeting, just to look like he was a JERK. But after that few times, both of us felt too awkward to talk anymore.