I remember back in the old days, when I was in middle school, I was given a bank account with $700 in there given to me from my parents. My aunts gave me the ATM card for it, and taught me how to use it. They told me not to take the money out and spend it, but they would give me the ATM card for safekeeping. I guess they wanted me to learn about how to manage money. But back in the days there were those Sanrio stuff that I loved, and everybody in the class was trying to show off their pretty pens and pencils. Everyone back then was into YES! Cards …. I eventually had to take out money from my bank account to spend on these things, not to mention buying cassette tapes for Aaron or Grasshopper, my beloved Jimmy, Vivian, Andy, Leon, etc. Back then I remember the cassette tapes were around $35 each. Much more expensive then the CD’s!!! (Now talk about downloading for free – please buy CD’s every now and then)

 

Because I was so happy that I could buy the things I wanted, so I kept spending my bank account money. I had no control. I even bought gifts for my friends, they were so happy. It never occurred to me that I had no way of replenishing the money. It didn’t occur to me that what if one day they found out I had spent everything? I think back then, a pack of gum cost about $0.35. So I guess $700 lasted me about 3 months. Because I was secretly buying these things, I had to lie about coming home late; I had to hide my things so my family wouldn’t find out. Ever since I was young, I was so used to lying and hiding things. My life’s been full of lies. I only did it to my family.  I lied because I didn’t want to explain. I didn’t want to get lectures. I always felt like they wouldn’t understand my needs, in which to date I still think parents wouldn’t understand why their kids need Sanrio stuff.

 

Oh so that’s why it led me to child psychology. I happened to have a book at home that talked about child psychology. Maybe I was seeking comfort to be understood? I think back then that was my only escape from the consequences and reality – until I had more money to buy GameBoy in high school. I spent all my time and money on games. I was not studying.

 

In Spirituality, what you are as a person today reflects back to your childhood. Did you have any traumatic experiences when you were a kid? It could affect you subconsciously, even if it’s as little as not getting the toy that you wanted. You could actually go back to these traumatic experiences to heal them so it wouldn’t affect you subconsciously today. In Reiki, this is called healing your Inner Child. Your inner child was hurt in the past, we need to heal it so it would improve your emotions or views towards life.