Colon Cancer

Yesterday I was all anxious at work, making phone calls to the hospital asking when my grandmother can come home. She’s doing much better, and instead of staying there all alone without language assistance, it’s better off she goes home. At around 2, I finally knew that she can leave, but I have to go back with her on Wednesday to see the surgeon.

 

After hearing that she can come home, I felt totally relieved, no longer feeling the anxiety from whole morning. I went to pick her up, and the surgeon wanted to talk to me to talk about the surgery, then he said “to remove the cancer”. I heard that and I was puzzled, thinking maybe he just said cancer in general. After I hung up, Dr. Walter Lee, grandma’s primary doctor came and we questioned him about the tumor. He then told us it’s cancer. When he came it was so casual, and when he said it, it just didn’t sound formal enough. Sigh. She’s going to need chemo and radiation after surgery.

 

Went home and my HK aunt called. She’s planning on coming back to U.S. to take care and spend time with grandma, for 3 months without pay. My aunt and I are relieved that we get some family support, because with us going to work, it’s hard for us to come back and cook for both of my grandparents. Plus my grandma is requesting for the Chinese soups – which take more than 2 hours to cook. It’s easier to cook for just the 2 of us – we are younger so we can just eat whatever. But the older people need nutrition, so we have to cook fish, meat, veggies, plus soup. It’s a lot of work!

 

Have to be prepare for a different lifestyle from now on. It’s such an inappropriate time to travel. I’m starting to think - What if the operation fails? The chances are low, but what if like freddy, something unexpected happens? My aunt wants to be here in case something happens, just like freddy. So I think that’s what she is thinking about. I used to trust operations thinking that they must be successful. After what happened to Freddy, I think I have to prepare for the worst. I’m so glad my aunts are coming. With her here, everyone is relieved.